Crying in the corner Dude i stayed up since we got here to let other family members into the house. Mush called me the hotel manager, when they finally arrived at 3:30 AM.i slept in till 11 and had only half an hour to get ready before kids started showing up. Like Melanie said, "They're NOT on Filipino time, they'll be here on time". i was in charge of the body tattoos and face painting. Mel was in charge of the magic wands and crowns. Mark was in charge of the ball pit and spin art. I think it was before the caramel apples and after the cake...but Kaitlin, my so called 4th grade assistant launched a coup de tat. Another small child named rhianna attacked me and held me down while kaitlin drew a pirate skull and cross bones on my shoulder...she also put "PIRITE SKULL" underneath..then a blue happy face. Oh man, i was crying bloody murder and no one, no adults came to help..other kids..just swarmed and grabbed the paint pens and were about to attack me..But casey saved me and said "Hey guys, that's not funny !" Yay. All of my relatives kept giving me funny looks from the black markings on my upper arm. i helped the kids make crowns...eat...there was a pair of cute sisters named Eloise and Phobe. They were so smart. Eloise was small and quiet, very fair white skin and cutie freckles. Phoebe was slightly tanned, taller and smarter. Very eloquent for a 7 year old. She talked of other things...yanno worldly things that people my age have trouble thinking about. I didn't have that much personality when i was younger. The wild child, Rhianna came with her two younger sisiters..Riley and Rachelle. Rachelle had the most adorable hair, she had a fountain held up by a single daisy flower tie.i was jumping with those three in the jumpy house, because their mom had stayed after the kid party and talked for a while. She was one of those moms that lost weight really fast after pregnancy. She was one of those Hot moms yanno? The ones with the high voice, but really sweet. She was dressed similarly to me, short-overalls..white shirt. She asked me to babysit her three girls because they have no family at all up here and they seemed to have liked me a lot. The youngest clung to me when i carried her. Those girls really did like me. The bounced up and down, holding my hands in a circle bouncing more. Showing off " Jennifer look how high i can jump !" they were so cute. Meanwhile, all the older kids stayed inside and cool. then finally the kids left and the relatives started showing up..a second pinata was broken and here i am chewin on a nerd rope and cooling off from that hectic party. I kept complaining that i never had a party like that. The girls were arguing.."Oh yeah? Well i have 16 presents right now" and another would go "Well i had 30 at mine.." And i go..."Hey, I only had ONE" and i watched their disgusted faces. haha..my cruise. Caramel apples...crowns..wands..face painting, spin art, barbeque, cake, fries, a bouncy house , bingo and give away toys that filled two shopping bags. GOOD GOD, this family is rich.

What Was Your PastLife?

Never high on life.. dude, i'm freakin buzzing from the fumes coming from my room. I decided to empty all my doodads from my rolley drawer thing...and there was a whole thing a nail polish that had gone bad. supposedly, if you put on old nail polish your nails stain. well, i actually know this from first-hand experience. sooo, what to do with all this extra nail polish? like..12 bottles...erf, i painted over the fronts of the clear plastic drawers..to cover up old labels..."Nail polish" or " hair things" "pictures" or " stuff" i'm sure i'll put different things in when i get to Davis. they're all drying right now in my room...dude the fumes are mingling their way through the rest of the house. i spilled some on my leg..wonder if it'll stain. Nail polish should be an art medium. Meh, i woulda blown away the art world if i had been an artist. hahaha. i packed already, we're leaving tomorrow afternoon for Casey's party. i'm bringing a box of clothes...pants, jackets and winter stuff to store in my new weekend studio in San Ramon. started to watch Starship Troopers....ate a peach....yumm

familiar headaches.. i took a shower and put my trial contacts in. Oh yeah, those headaches that make me crave for that advil. Yumm. We're not leaving until 6..6:30...not gonna get to San Ramon will late. sheesh. painted the sides of my rolley drawers..since there are 9 drawers...i put two sentences along each of the sides. "Can you hokey pokey? That's what its all about" and "And then we all fall down and go splat !" hahah i'm gonna scare my roommates.

i THINK know i scare my mother yah dee dah. yesterday , dinner was really great. it was this yummy garlicy ravioli that tasted great without sauce and ok with it. afterwards..the HBO screen The Virgin suicides by sofia coppola was next...i went off raving about how great it was, i didn't notice until a second later that my mother was mortified. more than the time that i said the movie Cheaters was a great movie too. haha. Well anyhoo, she kinda does have reason to worry..sometimes. haha. after everyone went to bed at like 10..yeah my family sleeps early. i watched some tv downstairs to let them sleep before i went back on the internet upstairs. I watched freddy got fingered...hahaha tom green rocks. watched the first half of Mrs. Doubtfire....had some red wine. its not my thing...drank half a pitcher of iced tea. spent two hours cleaning and packing things in my room. boxes of papers to go to the attic..clothes that i'm taking to college. MAN I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT. and now i'm chillin here...alone. on the internet. i even noticed that no one really IMs me anymore either. that's kinda sad. meh whatever. strike that:
Xl nite lx: we have the #1 karate team in the nation [irvine]
Xl nite lx: go figure huh?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: ooooh !
YeLLoDuCKiE1: LOL
Xl nite lx: i met one of my old friends from jr high in ontario and he's going to davis too
Xl nite lx: he is pretty stoked, although he thinks it will be boring
YeLLoDuCKiE1: is he hot??
Xl nite lx: id do him
YeLLoDuCKiE1: hook me up foo !
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol
Xl nite lx: aight...dont trip
Xl nite lx: hes not online right now, but ill let him know
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah, i hope he likes weird girls.
Xl nite lx: i dont know...he is friends with me so he is pretty wierd
YeLLoDuCKiE1: hehe
Xl nite lx: but maybe not, because he is a sweetheart


called chris and saw what was up...uhm..nothing really..he works today at 3. almost watched the Shining..but i was kinda interuppted a few times..then i didn't have the stomach to watch the movie anymore or eat..or write my newest song. so, now, totally bummed out..i have to find my father's work number so he can take me to my eye appt. well i kept dialing the wrong number...so er, i called my mom. And she was scrubbed so she couldn't come to the phone. er so i called tony...out of the blue. and asked him to take me to the mall...he hung around through the whole appt. and after...my mom came by and dissappeared...and apparently she had paid for one year's worth of contacts...yeah, then she left us...we went walking...then driving around..then had some sandwiches at the Euro-deli. i bought a warsaw and some chocolate. got home and...talked on the phone with rachel and lucia....weird..finally some human contact. And i'm leaving tomorrow for Frisco. yah dee dah, bringing some clothes over..

Oh my Ska family.. oh man, there's a freakin Save Ferris Show at the Orange county fair dude! ITs this friday and i can't go, i'm leaving for Frisco again for Casey's party. DAMMIT. my favorite freakin band man!!!
SAVE FERRIS
Friday, July 19
One of Orange County's most popular bands in the past decade, Save Ferris brings their brand of ska/pop/swing to the Fair for the first time, with hits such as "Come on Eileen" and "Under 21."

WAHHH they've finally finished their asia-college-club scene and i can finally be allowed to go into one of their shows..and NOW I CAN'T GO ! dude...ok, they need to play a club tour NOW, i'm 18, let's get on with this ! yeah i DLed some Ska covers...by dur..SAVE FERRIS. And i remember this emo- ska group that Hannah tried to show me, Like David. Dude they rock. I'm burning a few cds tonight...my emo and ska. I love you ! The Save ferris site inspired me...gonna mimic their site for one of my many layouts. plus i'm gonna burn all of my smashing pumpkin cds and sugar ray and stuf and imma sell them to the Wherehouse so i can have concert money, cuz maybe there's a warp tour that needs a jenn to visit...hahaha i woke up at the usual noonish...mom came home with mark and she took us to Arby's...i felt kinda sick during the meal, maybe it was all that horseradish in the morning...it was noon, but morning to ME. i went home and slept...and well here i am...downloading more music. what a life this is. i added a guestbook to this site and my angelfire one...SIGN IT !

blending in.. i've been sitting around on my tush again. i made my asianavenue.com page really nice. it actually looks decent. Ever since i made my Bitterness Barbie Layout ...i've been getting realy keen with the html, design and java. Pretty neato huh? talked to Auntie Earmah. Planning a wild and crazy August before she starts school. buncha maybes: clubbin, mexico, beach, daygo, melrose, whitewater rafting...visiting friends like Tiffananiny..Bry..Jade..Yanno. Anyway, getting ready for college. i have orierientation on the 30th. pretty freaky. i wanna meet my roommates now. dude i hope to GOD that i got Quarto. still deciding the band issue. do i wanna do it this year? wanna shop for more school clothes..L. A. here i come. watch out burbank !

Sorority sluts OY! i watched soroity girls...one whole episode and i got pretty annoyed. That blonde girl's obnoxious up the WAZOO. And they make FUN of the girl that was worried about her midterms and volunteering. God damn MTV. They fuck up everything. See that's why I didn't wanna be on the phobia show. Exploit something that doesn't need to be exploited. That's MY school. They're just focusing on everything BUT school. Yeah they'll mention a little blurb about having a paper due or something, but there's no actually studying or...writing..all i see is drinking, lecturing, hot tubbin..Not much of a life there. I thought sororities were better than that. Plus i heard that sorority was a JEWISH one? eh i dunno, not gonna watch. anyhoo. I went out today to the mall and watched people play ddr. I'm starting to get annoyed with that game. Well anyone would be annoyed if they had to watch something that they suck at, when especially your friends are wayyyy the fuck better than you. Yeah its because i don't practice, yeah its because i don't have money...and yeah its because i don't like messing up in front of people. I'm a little too prideful for that game. haha..my friends probably noticed, which is why they didn't even invite me to play. i could come to the mall with the group intention to play, but no one really expects me to play. And if it twere proposed, i would most likely decline. anyhoo, i bought cranberry apple tea because i had a headache. i took advil and sat there. tried to get my extra battery for my phone...mark was right, they DID get my number. and NO they didn't have my battery. went to jamba juice and got a peach thing..its still sitting in my freezer. went home..read some mansfield park..i'm still in episode one out of three. and on chapter 13 out of 18 in episode 1. hahaha this is gonna take forever...then i fell asleep cuz my headache came back and i couldn't reach that yummy advil..

Conversationalists My run-ins with the aim people...
YeLLoDuCKiE1: i have orientation on the 30th
Xl nite lx: i have orientation wednesday
Xl nite lx: its a special engineering orientation though so im guessing its gonna be a bunch of indians and asains
YeLLoDuCKiE1: hahaha..
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah mines with just exercise bio people.
Xl nite lx: heheh...future PE teachers of america!!!
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yanno what..
YeLLoDuCKiE1: you suck.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: farkin amit.
Xl nite lx: come on, it will be cool
Xl nite lx: you know some of those people are gonna end up being PE teachers
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah..some of them, but not ME
Xl nite lx: PE teacher is a respectable job
Xl nite lx: we need people to whip our young into shape
YeLLoDuCKiE1: AMEET. dude. that sucks. you're killin me man.
Xl nite lx: im sowry jen
Xl nite lx: but you have to admit, it would be funny
Xl nite lx: just like if i owned a 7/11
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol
YeLLoDuCKiE1: HAHAHAHAHA
YeLLoDuCKiE1: ok ok
Xl nite lx: guess what!!! i know why its called 7/11
YeLLoDuCKiE1: why?
Xl nite lx: it was created on July 11th
YeLLoDuCKiE1: oh...interesting.
Xl nite lx: they had a special 75th anniversery or something where they gave free slurpees on Jully 11th
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol
YeLLoDuCKiE1: that's tight.
Xl nite lx: you bet your bottom it is