Goodbye, but NOT farewell. Yes, i'm sorry to say, I'm leaving you blogger. I'm starting to fill up this journal to the brim, so I've started another: DISAGREEABLE TO THE AESTHETIC WORLD

I've also made another layout...enter WARHOL BARBIE 3.0 So long ..farwell Blogger.

No worries, i'll return to this server when i fill up livejournal.com. [ if you know me by now, that will be sooner than you think ! ]

Oh we're signed up for volunteering Pffft, i'm SO done with charity work. My brother came home from band camps and said "Oh Roni signed us up for the trolley driving on Sunday" I was like, HELL no. Dude...the whole principle of "signing up" for something is that you do it on your own free will. Pfft yeah right, i'm not fucking going. I have a life you know. Ok, well maybe not...but i don't wanna go. I really don't find pleasure in hanging out with my brother and his friends...sorry but..they're my brother's friends. Then again, my friend left for college. I'm a huge mess. Meh. Being lonely sucks. I woke up at noon again. watched some tv...went on the internet. I changed my rateapix.com picture...i'm giving that site a run for their money ! Hahahaha. Anyway. Mark came home from band camp, he showed me the t-shirt for this year...it looks like they're a geriatric group from Florida. Coincidentally, the band trip is set in Florida. Well my brother left to go volunteer at the fair...so..er i'm by myself again. I need money...I need to get outta here...I need my friends...I need a smoke...hahaha.

it'll all be alright, tell him well this seemingly uneventful day has progressed into somewhat entertaining. i woke up early cuz i slept early..[2AM ! ] freaking A. so i went on the internet..got depressed cuz it sank in that chandi and rachl left me. i couldn't even watch tv. i started downloading music on my computer...and left it..i made some noodles and got sick of them...i sat there under the ceiling fan..then iwent to play with fire again. Then mark came home...brought drifters with him..hahahah. Then dad came home with pictures they were of our disneyland trip...they're great pix. If they're not showing up, i'm not done yet ! Anyway...Diana called to get leesa's number. But i didn't have it...so she came to pick me up, i was bored. We dropped shannon at home and we went to charisa's . She's so cute and she showed me her hip surgery scars. Arthur made us chicken dinner and stuff, it was yum. Then me and diana met chrissy at the movies to see signs. That was scary, i like dove into chris' lap. freaking A. We put gas into diana's car and drove to In n Out. We talked about shit and ate fries. Then chris drove me home. Anyway...i'm scanning pics now.

YeLLoDuCKiE1: Dude ! Signs was scary !
sm00thC2iminal: haha yeah
sm00thC2iminal: did you like it
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah it was kool
sm00thC2iminal: the ending was cool
YeLLoDuCKiE1: like prolly an hour into the movie, Chris was like "Whoa, i didn't know this was an alien movie.."
YeLLoDuCKiE1: he thought it was a horror flick.
sm00thC2iminal: what and idiot
sm00thC2iminal: an*
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol
sm00thC2iminal: haha
sm00thC2iminal: do crop circles give any damn hint
YeLLoDuCKiE1: he didn't know what they were
sm00thC2iminal: lol haha
sm00thC2iminal: poor chris

Even my brother won't hang out with me My mom got called into work ridiculously early this morning... 7 ! I had to go because she didn't wanna drive home to pick me up for my Orthodontist appt. So...err i drag myself outta bed, take a shower and shove my contacts and stuff into my zebra bag...along with scholarship stuff and my book, Mansfield park. I'm finally on the last episode...10 more chapters ...75 pages ~! i can do it ! I went to the cafeteria already feeling sick from waking up so freakin early. So i order a ton of food, that always helps. I got bacon, eggs and hash browns and iced tea...yum...well until half way through my meal..ew i felt my stomach gurgle in a bad way. So i read my book to get my mind off of it. I then ran to the bathroom to throw up. Yeah. That was yummy. I walked around 2tower saying hi to people. Then i took my scholarship papers...and claimed my 500 dolla scholarship from the volunteer office. I hung out there for a bit...got sick of Mrs. Sullivan and went back to the cafeteria to read..i read like 2 chapters and went back to the office to write notes on the wall for the volunteers. Mark got mad cuz i didn't say goodbye to him...freaking A, i live with him..he's my brother.

11 rolled around and my mom came by to pick me up. We walked to the ortho office. Dr. Stoll. He's really nice and his secretary needs ritalin. I start my treatment next week. I have a cross bite in the back of my mouth, but in the front i have a massive overbite. So...er don't laugh too hard when you see me next week. We walked back to the car and my mom drove me to rachel's...we waited for chandi...and we all went to sharky's. Me and rach shared nachos while chandi woofed down the large quesadilla. My mom gave me money and the two guys showed up...chrissy and what's his face. We chilled for a bit then drove to the mall. We split up...looking for stiped shirts...pretzels...and such. Rachel had to return some shoes in mervyns..so she told us to find her some striped shirts...she wanted to take pics with me and chandi..but us two brown people were wearing striped shirts..so she felt left out. Me and chris gathered striped shirts and sat on a display case waiting for her...it had been 10 minutes and chand i and amit found us..we all chilled for another 10 minutes...we thought rachel was kidnapped ~! AMBER ALERT ! freaking A..we split up and looked all around the store...and well finally she walked INTO the store...she had gone out. ARGGG. Dude..scared us. She said she went by the clothes but didn't see us. Dude..we were so loud, how could you not notice us there?

We went to the picture place ...rachel bought a shirt..left the tag on...took pictures in it and returned it. We have 4 poses...on the first one, i was supposed to face rachel...and like my boob tapped her humungous one..and like i had to distance myself in the picture..click here to see what i mean., you'll see what i mean. two were boring poses..but they turned out cute..the last pose was on a set of stairs..we were told to lay across them..i was like..DUDE chandi's at my BUTT. lol...we thought it was the worst pose...but it turned out the best and we ended up picking it. We had to wait an hour before we could pick the pose..so we went with rach to return her shirt..i went to the eye place to pick up my contacts. Then amit left...and they..[sniff sniff...yeah.] anyway...chandi caught up with us at the T-mobile store..she was frowning. We then drove to vons..chandi had to do bank stuff. The rest of us went to visit kelso at her ice cream shop. I had a sundae and chris bought ice cream. We talked and realized we had to meet my mom at target. So we went, i met her..she got a cute haircut...we went to the bank while chris said goodbye to my sisters. He made rachel cry ! [sshhhh !!!] haha i got my own bank account now...and an atm card. So they picked me up and we ventured back to the mall, picked our poses..waited for them to print..we walked around various stores..i looked at "lighters" again while rachel tried to buy a phone...we picked up our pictures and drove to my house.

My mom took pix of us on the bench and on the couch..they said bye to my brother, my dad and mom...and we got outside...i hugged rachel in a funny way, i didn't want her boobs to touch me. I didn't make her cry. I hugged chandi and she kissed my head...[one time she said.."Hey stop eating my head !" and " i like that one comedian...carrot head ! "]...more like my hair, kinda freaked me out..and well they drove off. I was sad for a complete five minutes and left again with my brother to Jimmy's eatery to eat myself out of my misery....we went to ralphs and bought water balloons for the band camp thing tomorrow...and well i'm home now...gonna play with fire....i'm all lonely.

record time In my vapid lonliness and boredom..i decided to celebrate and embrace the horrible existance i now know as my life...i made a spin-off layout of my first site. I crown thee Bitterness Barbie 1.5: Celebrating the lonliness What makes this even better is that i spit out the site in record time. I found a new midi...made new intros and imagemaps..uploaded and coded in 20 minutes. FREAKING 20 minutes. It's getting really easy now and i think i might pursue this as a serious hobby in the future.

not toothless anymore Yes folks, i have a full set of teeth now. Hahah i no longer look like a pirate ! Yes ! I woke up at 9 to the phone ringing...i thought someone was home to answer it..but nahhhh..so i got up and answered. I had a dentist appt. at 2pm...an emergency. I showered and waited for my dad to come home at noon. He came..we got to the office at 1...he left me, he had a meeting to go to. Since i was an "emergency" case, i was given a room, but they only serviced my tooth in 5 minute increments every hour i think...it seemed like that. Before i started to doze off, Dr. Bamshad came in...look at my mouth..looked at the tooth i had put in the ziplock...looked at papers and handed the case file to Dr. Hernandez. I like her..she's my favorite doctor out of the others.

There's Dr. Nguyen, she's really sweet..she's done some of my fillings, she doesn't speak english that well. Dr. Bamshad kinda hurt my mouth when he did my fillings all fast...he's kinda weird. Dr. Saidara is really nice, he's sweet and kinda talks like Jason Alexander mixed with Kramer. Some weird Arabian accent also mixed in..haha. The nurses are hilarious...they're all happy all the time ..Only two really have worked on me...Dee dee and Lola. Dee dee is a big afro woman..she's the most experienced nurse out of all of them. She probably knows my case file the best too, I've had her almost each time except for the last few. Lola is a thin mexican girl...she's NOT the most experienced one out of all of them, i guess they make her work on me to gain experience. So today Lola and Dr. Hernandez worked on me today. At first 4 years ago...Dr. Hernandez would lecture me about my teeth all the freakin time..but nowadays..she just tells me filipino jokes and sings while she drills. Lola has this annoying voice..kinda nasily and high pitched at the same time, if possible.

So the procedure went as follows: Dr. H shot me 4 times...from the top over the gap in my mouth and under. Lola stuck the sucker in my mouth while Dr. drilled behind my stub. It was no problem because i had gotten a root canal in that tooth about 5 years ago..they fitted me with a metal post, cast it twice [ because Lola messed the first one up] , and capped the stub with a temporary cap. I got out..stretching, i had been in that damn chair for 4 hours ! Freaking A. So i waited for my mom to pick me up...she paid..and we went outside. I waited because she forogt her keys on the counter...and as i waited...this woman and three children were walkin by me. She was yelling and hooting cuss words and stuff..and when she passed me she said " And kids, that's what its like to not match"...OMg she was referring to me ! i wanted to stab her in the eye with a pen ~! Anyway..my mom had to go back to work..so she dropped of at Rachel's house..at least i get to see her before she leaves. She was packing... we chilled, ate bread, chicken, cookies and watched the simpsons...talked about Kevin and Chris..hahahahahaha. Anyway, my mom picked me up and well now she's yelling at me to do the dishes....haha.. toodles.

drive you to die.. yeah today was a waste of my life. I mean i'm on the internet all night usually...but i can't do that in the daytime. Its just a waste, cuz no one's there to talk to. Like...FUCK..what am i supposed to do if i can't get outta here dude? I was lectured into the grim realization that I'm gonna be dependent on my damn parents for the next 5 years....oh yeah, i forgot..i'm a spoiled, rich, asian kid. hopefully, i find someone to take me away from alla this shit. I loved the feeling of being so free on that boat on Saturday..like i was flying. Little things can piss me off yanno and when people IM me and say "HI !!!!" and say they have to go, BEFORE i can even respond. DUDE you're killin me. That kinda thing can drive a person to suicide. Really..it CAN. God..i feel so..unwanted, yanno that feeling? its like i'm gagged and wanna scream. The worst thing to do to a person in this vulnerable and delicate state...is build that person up and break them down two seconds later.

anyway i talked to chandi last night...seems that her "buddy" err..made the moves on her on her birthday. COUGHfor5minutesCOUGH...that made my night.i was half excited, half grossed out for her. Just kidding, i'm kool with that farkin character. Ken and Lee cheered me up a lot. Yanno, simple chit chat that makes me smile saves me from myself. Thank you. [high five]

I was bored and took the "Date-able test" on thespark.com Ken took it too..we got different percentages..he gotta 75% and i got a 68%, but we got the same result thing. Now i'm starting to doubt the credibility of these online tests ! haha..

Damn, J-Lo! You are...
68%
dateable! Attractive and confident, witty and charming, a healthy ambrosia-based diet... you're wanted in the 48 contiguous states, you slayer. Call me. Seduce me. Make me a man (or woman.) Not only do you know how to turn a guy's (or girl's) engines on, but you also know how to oil, lube and rotate it. You put the "elation" back into "relationship," and the "night" back into "one-night stand."

manic depressive day i swear, my outlook on today was pretty good. I cleaned my room, talked to chris, downloaded a bunch of Lauryn Hill. Chandi called and said she was meeting whats his face over here so they can go to dinner in Valencia. She came over, watched some tv, had some chips and pepsi...she changed..picked up her party pics from wal mart, came back...and she sat there talkin to my parents..they were having a good time. Then...her "buddy" arrived. I answered the door..it was great. He was mega-slouched kinda lowering his head saying very timidly and and rehearsed "Is Chandana home?" I just started cracking up dude. I like fell on the ground. He came in..and they left saying things like "Thanks mom, bye mom !" haha i was like.."Ok you kids be careful now !" Yeah..then i started watching this Michael Jackson 30th anniversary thing on VH1. And i was biting into a soft, dried papaya...and my tooth fell out ~!

OMG, my right crown fell out...its like a front tooth..i started freaking out and my mom didn't pay ANY attention to me, she was on the phone. She put her finger up in my face giving me the "wait a minute" look. I started to cry and she didn't even look at me. I was freaking wiggin out dude. I went to the bathroom to look at it and the decapitated tooth. It was kinda bleeding..and it actually hurt. When they put the crown on...they gave me a root canal...shaped the dead tooth into a stub so that they could put a whte gold cap on it...Well the stub broke off with the cap..so i'm fucking screwed...denture time for me. So after assessing my situation, i walked out of the bathroom to my mother who had finished talking on the phone. I showed her and her reaction was..laughter. She was fucking laughing at me. I wanted to stab her in the face. She called the dentist's office almost crying with laughter. Yeah..fucking pound down my self esteem. I sat there hugging my pillow trying to get my mind off of it. I looked in the mirror and ...it looks horrible. So horrible..that i forgot to cry. Now i probably won't be able to see chandi or rachel this week cuz i'll be busy fixing my teeth. God damn..why am i so cursed? And when bad things happen to me...they come in groups!! Why the fuck does this happen to me? WHY? It fucking tears me apart...it does..it does....

watching tv for once. Yeah , i actually plunked my mini-ass on the ground in front of the tv and watched Road Rules. I actually like this season. I just refuse to watch Real World. So yeah, i was watching upstairs because my mom came home with food and my father came downstairs and changed the fucking channel. My brother just left for Chandi's party, with my camera. WHOA..WAIT A TICK. HOLD THE PHONE..Jenn doesn't watch TV ! Whoa !! why isn't she going to Chandi's party? Jenn's been grounded for the first time in her fucking insignificant life. Yeah it started kinda yesterday...i went waterskiing and was dead tired, so i slept the entire way home. I missed my mother's phonecalls and voicemails. So i just went home and fell asleep. At like 3..she wakes me up and yells at me, saying i'm grounded. Meh i didn't pay attention..i was fucking tired. so after i watched real world..my mom was yelling for me to come downstairs to eat lunch with them..Meh i wasn't hungry. She started yelling at me..both her and my dad were lecturing me about my responsibilities and having a phone has gone to shit becauuse i dont answer it when they call. Well if they would fucking lighten up and not yell at me everytime they talk to me..maybe i'd fucking lighten up too. My mom then tried the motherly approach by crying and holding my arm. Meh, and i kinda pulled my arm back..i don't like it when people touch me, especially ones i don't like. And as usual, i sat there and gave her my "look of disdain". Then she tried the silent approach. she's such a fucking child. The phone rang and she didn't get up. I did and talked to my grandmother..my mom didn't move. I passed the phone along and went upstairs and here i am. I could be saying goodbye to one of my best friends...But no i'm downloading and listening to Eminem and diggin "Hailey's song".

Hekate84: hey jenn, what's your e-mail?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yelloduckie1@aol.com
Hekate84: well, that's simple enough
Hekate84: thanks
YeLLoDuCKiE1: haha..yeah.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: am i to expect something entertaining in the e-mail box?
Hekate84: nope
YeLLoDuCKiE1: bah hum-bug.
Hekate84: inquiring minds wanted to know
YeLLoDuCKiE1: wow, plural. I feel special for some reason.
Hekate84: i have multiple personalities
YeLLoDuCKiE1: Even better.
Hekate84: right; i still want to know if, when a person with multiple personalities threatens suicide if it's a hostage situation
YeLLoDuCKiE1: depends if the others agree or not.
Hekate84: ah, that's true
YeLLoDuCKiE1: hey, ya never know..that one that pretends to be happy might wanna go too.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: What a mood i'm in.
Hekate84: odd mood?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: well, i've been grounded for the first time in my life.

time to get my mind offa illegal drugs and depression

My Romance Meter

Optimist 35% . . 65% Cynic Close 5% . . 95% Distant Long Term 4% . . 96% Brief

What does my romance meter read?

Ok, now that's just rude Yeah now both my fucking parents are acting like children. They opened all the windows in the house..and we live in the AV, so...things get blown around here...curtains..doors..drawers. So...the door to my bathroom keeps slamming open and shut...and the drawer opened too. So...the door was then prevented from opening because of the open drawer and it just kept making noise. So my dad got up and tried to close the drawer with a hanger so that the door would open. But he was using his foot to keep the door open a crack...but thatwas preventing the drawer from closing..i tried telling him..in a nice manner..and he burst yelling at me saying "YOU GOTTA BETTER IDEA? THEN YOU FUCKING DO IT" and he threw the hanger on the ground. Oh my geez, what a freak i swear. So took a yardstick and pushed it through the crack and tapped the back of the drawer so that it would go in..it worked and i told my father [ who then sat at the computer] that the door was now open. And he was like.. "GOOD..IT WAS YOUR FAULT IT GOT LIKE THAT ANYWAY..." well fuck you asshole. fuck you.

if Road rules can, I can ! Oh dude, i woke up so early...unnecessarily EARLY. FARKIN chris. Ok i woke up at 6:30 and got ready to go, Kenn came and picked me up at 7:30 in the AM. At that moment when i ran to get the door, my nose started bleeding. Yeah that's a great start to the day ! hahaha. Ok, i laid there in the back of the camry..we changed cars and drove to AMPM to buy some breakfast and some ice for the cooler. As we were getting ready to leave AMPM, freakin chris calls and tells us that we don't have to be at the house until 9:30...GAHHHHHHHH. We sat there in the car flabberghasted and eating our breakfast. Eh just drove over to Chris'...and yeah...we didn't end up leaving until like 11. dude..we watched Kung pow, what a HORRIBLE movie. We piled into Chris' truck and drove two freaking hours to Riverside..Lake Perris. IT was so freaking tiring....all of us were sleeping. Chris didn't even sleep that night, i'm surprised he was so...hyper. Yeah we unloaded the cars and i watched the boys struggle with the koolers. One had wheels and the other didn't. Guess which one the really weak boys had to carry? Ohh man...Ken, Chris, Angelo and brand took turns carrying the freaking green kooler. We had to walk SO FAR. HAHAHAHAHA. Oh well. We got there and no one really spoke much; if they did..it was in tagalog. We all changed and waded in the lake for a bit. Then Uncle Richard took us in the boat. We were gonna try water skiing !

Chris went first and didn't really accomplish anything, he didn't even get pulled out of the water...kinda dragged for a second and he fell over about 3 times. His brother Herbert tried it about twice and go seasick, so we had to take him back. I felt so free just sitting in the front of the boat and feeling the air rush past me. It was a small boat that lifted its nose when you went fast enough. Brandon decided to go first..Ken was really skeptical and scared for his brother. But it was all good. Brand kept saying.."AGAIN !!!" The problem that they all had was that the skis were way too big and kept falling off their feet. Uncle richard let chris drive while he waterskiied. He showed us what it was all about. Ok, it was my turn. And haha we had found the small skis. They fit perfectly ! I laughed as i put them on...I jumped into the water and floated there remember what to do..1. Keep the tips of the skis out of the water . 2. bend your knees to your chest 3. hold the harness close to your body at first, then slowly release once you get going. 4.Keep the skis together. Gosh, it was so tiring..that's why i stretched before i went out. Chris got a cramp or two.....So..i was floating there with the harness and i yelled "OK !! GO" And dude i felt the power of the boat engine tug the rope ..increasing the tautness. Dude it was so exhilerating ! I got up a litte and fell forward, getting some water into my nose..My second try was the same..But the thrid and fourth times were kick ass, i got above the water and skied for a few seconds. Yeah i felt good. Cuz if those weaking Road Rules people could do it..I COULD DAMMIT !

Ken went after me after some convincing...he was so kool about it. He wasn't scared anymore and finally realized that he can always say " Hey i waterskiied." We headed back to shore and thanks uncle richard. Then we jumped onto the Sea doo. OMG that was fucking crazy. Usually Sea Doos are two seaters..this one was a 13 thou tircked out..FOUR SEATER ! The speed limit on the lake was 35 mph...but hahah..we were prolly goin like...60mph. We all took turns to drive...YES even me. When chris drove...he went so FAST...he hit 60 mph and we were all holding onto each other for dear life. Kenn was in the back and was freaking out about falling off and hitting the cement hard water. When Brand drove, we rode the waves pretty good..that was kool. When Ken drove, we hit the waves head on and got tons of water in the face. When i drove, we would go like 50-60..then stop hahaha..forcing the boys to hump each other..hahaha. We were like holding each other so hard, our arms hurt afterward. itried sitting in the back while chris drove..Dude i almost fell off, my legs flew up in the air..it was like riding a run away horse. We drove back to shore..oh gosh...my adrenaline was pumping. I changed and ate a little lunch...We packed up and dropped dead in the car. We drove back and chilled at chris' house..had some dinner and drove home. Dude. What a freaking kool day.

soccer is meant for soccer balls I got home pretty late last night and couldn't come online to reiterate my long day to you all. it started at the usual noonish, i woke up and took a shower...watched some tv and waited for chris to pick me up. Well it turns out Ken never woke up..so we were sitting there waiting till 3:30. A couple a band moochers came over and chilled for a little. 3:30 came and we drove to Ken's house. He was cleaning his bathroom. When the hell is he NOT cleaning?? We got into the car and drove to sports chalet to buy lifejackets. They were 13 bucks, and we thought we could get cheaper ones at Walmart, so we went. There were two for eleven dollars...Ken got them... we drove back to sports chalet and bought another one for chris....me and Ken stayed in the car [ freaking chris' computer has nsync on it and erased my two page entry..so i'm all pissed..grrar] ok to continue, we went to the 99 cent store..[ haha yeah we did Shannon, sorry !] And chris bought channon and kelso decapitated britney dolls. Err yeah i decided to be a little more tasteful and buy them fake flowers, they last forever !

Then we drove to albertsons to buy an obscene amount of soda. I went and bought thai tea. Yummerific. So we drove Ken home, talked to his mom, chilled for a little bit..chris and Ken watched this funny replay from their previous game of Starcraft. Ayzza called and informed me of her debut plans...turns out i'm on the cotillion court, funny. haha. So I called Gene to get directions to Shannon's house, and i dragged chris from the starcraft and we drove to Shannon's...fake flowers and britney dolls in tow.

I was let in by shannon's brither, sean. I entered with christ, who was carrying red roses for kelso. we ventured to the bakeyard and saw the most violent game of water b-ball. All the boys were scathed with scratch marks and bruises. They looked like they were raped by horny mountain lions. I chatted with tony and misty before deciding to jump in...Chris left to make an appearance at Linz's party. I changed and dove in...being a mere spectator to the b-ball game. Oh to no avail...i still got bruised. Despite my pushing and screaming , i still got pushed against the wall a bit, nothing to cry over. Anyhoo...the game was finished and everyone was just chillin..Adam had gotten out of the pool and changed. Sosko told him to not kick the basketball, its not a soccer ball. We should have taken heed to Sosko's foresight. Well i was just sitting on a side step in the pool with Kelsey. All of a sudden, the b-ball comes in close contact to the backside of my cranium. Ouch. Yeah it kinda stung at first. But I didn't hurt...i watched kelsey float by me..and i realized it was me who was floating by. I had apparently fallen into the pool after the impact. My arms and head were weak, like i had no control over them. I don't remember being dragged out of the pool by Fish and Adam. But i was laid out on the wet cement. I came to when mr. Degroff and chandi were trying to keep my awake. some eyes tests were done and i was assisted into the guest room, still wet. Shannon and tony kept me company for a little bit and i got up...yeah i took it a little easy after that...

The pizza arrived and Adam paid for my pizza as compensation, so that i wouldn't sue him. hehehe. I should get hit more often. Actually, i would prefer to be "hit on". hahah. Anyway, the boys left to make an appearance at Linz's party. chandi left to go pick up my brother. Chris came back, so did gene. aww his hair ! gahh. We watched a little bit of "How high"...the boys came back, and fixed charisa arrived too. The party wasn't wild or anything, but it was so great ! Everyone was outside, while i stayed safe inside with sosko and christ. We talked about "bipolar-ness" and being accident prone. Well lemme think, i just talked to myself..kinda. They started another water b-ball game and i stayed inside for a good 5 minutes. Then i got all lonely and stuck my feet in the spa. I walked in on some ridiculous version of Truth or dare well, it was just DARE. And Anna kissed Jehu...diana kissed chris and well the game was over when they told me to kiss diana. Erf..yeah we made room for everyone to fit into the spa. I was between sosko and diana....yeah i decided it was kinda time to go home, since i had to wake up ridiculously early the next day to go water skiing. Mark and i got home and i just took a shower and fell asleep.

not the usual nightmare I woke up 4 hours ago with tears streaming down my face and i was sweaty...but it was cold in my room. I had my first nightterror. Everytime i sleep i have a nightmare..i thought nothing of it..because i don't usually sleep long enough to have REM cycles. Ok, well i remember the whole fucking thing. That scares me the most...it was so realistic..i laughed..and i felt REAL pain. I was prolly talking in my sleep last night. Ok well...

To clear it up, there was two of me. One performing in Lip sync and the other was watching. it was the day after the car accident and it was 5:30 pm. I had a ticket and was strolling into the gym with danny, kelsey, sosko and jehu. We sat atop the bleachers talking shit about people in the lip sync groups. we talked throughout the first performance...and waited for the second one. We pointed and laughed at the 2nd group [ my group] at their ridiculous props because they still didn't win. [omg that was horrible..i was acting like sosko.] Anyway, as i was pointing and laughing...the other me saw and held her head up high anyway...despite the pain. The pain was so REAL. It was basically the exact same events that happened at lip sync, but the pain was magnified. Every kind of physical pain that i've ever had appeared during the performance. My knees gave out ..but i kept going. My left arm hung loose..but i jerked it around so that it looked normal. My bruises started to appear and burned to the touch. The bruise on my head hurt especially bad. And for some reason, the lights in the gym were on, so everyone could see my horrible maladies forming while i performed. The performance seemed longer than 5 minutes. It felt like an hour long dance marathon to me. I walked off the stage looking absolutely fine, but when i sat down, i collapsed and no one cared. The "watching" Jenn didn't sympathize...she was cracking up.

I was so scared outta my mind..i've been up since 8. that god damn car accident just won't fucking go away. ok anyway... i don't need this shit.

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Mark in the middle my poor brother. dude much shit has hit his fan, i'm so surprised that he still cooly stands there. First..he ran for presidency of his 7th grade class. He lost. Second, ran for president of his 8th grade class. He lost. Third, he worked his ass off to get perfect grades and was not, for some reason, the valedictorian of his junior high. He tried out two years in a row to be drum major, i have never seen such a great try -out...He didn't get drum major. He doesn't ask for much, just the occassional video game and new book from my parents. He's a good kid. Bah, my mother just called him a pushover, because of the recent developments. At this moment, my fucking parents are fucking chewing him out downstairs. I mean, aren't we supposed to be on the same side here? They're yelling at him for not standing up to certain people. The situation: my brother went in for an interview to be the Pit Captain. At the end of last year, he was named the pit captain.This morning, some authority figures..who will remain nameless...took him into a room and told him "You're not the Pit Captian, its a mistake." My brother was complaining to me..and my parents heard. Mark was upset...and got over it pretty quickly. Then my parents had to butt in and start yelling at him. Now his anger over the situation has raged into an out of control wildfire. I really hate people who make my brother feel bad...those fucking "band" people..and my fucking parents. They're yelling at him and using the worst analogies " What if I said you would NEVER be drum major....and you wouldn't ask WHY??" They're also saying that he might not be drum major. Skepticism is something mark doesn't need. GOD, he really doesn't need this shit. Tomorrow's the first big band meeting, everyone will be there. And tomorrow, the shit is gonna fly. The fact that I can't do anything to protect my little brother, tears my heart out.


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NeoSpiderGold: LOL...oh man..
NeoSpiderGold: ChildMariko: u wanna join an orgy with me, Diana, and Adam?
yeLLoduckie1: huh?
NeoSpiderGold: hahahaha
NeoSpiderGold: i'm there!
yeLLoduckie1: zellmer and orgy in the same sentence?
NeoSpiderGold: i dunno.
yeLLoduckie1: [dies] i'm melting !

wow, that fish has vertigo. well that was a super freaking, mega awesome weekend. to continue...we drove to orange county, where Reah's apartment was located. We stayed in her room like hermits cuz people were sleeping in the living room..meh reah was tired too, so we didn't really do shit.. just went on the internet and listened to Marc Anthony. i set my phone to wake me up the next morning, cuz Bry was gonna pick me up. Errr i woke up at 10:30 and went back to sleep. Woke back up at 11 and woke up irma...we dragged ourselves to the car, [which was a freakin block away] and drove back to the house, i got ready, packed some clothes and waited for Bry.

He totally drove past me while i was waiting outside..hahah. We drove south on the 5 and stopped in Irvine to get boba. OMG. i ordered this apple tea drink and it was mega sour. and so i kept drinking it...it got half way and noticed one of the mixer people staring at me..i got my phone out to detract the staring...but he kept staring and was like "Hey, do you want another drink?" Dude i was totally wiggin...he was HOT. I was like.. "oh..no, its ok, it tastes fine" and i smile righhht. Then Bry was like "Oh..she thinks its SOUR" i like glared at him. And he gave the drink back to the guy and he made me another one. AWWAMAHGAWD. I was all bashful and...er. i hate that. So a hot guy at Tapioca Express gave me a free drink. Bry got a good laugh at it while i let my cheeks flush back to their original color. We drove to Bry's house...packed the car and picked up Christina. We drove across the way to Brandon's house...there was Brandon...Ryan...Brittany..and GASP...Lily? oooh a GIRL....lol. While brand and lily watched Lord o the rings...me, Britt, Ry and Bry played Super Smash brothers...I got my ass kicked, so i snooped around the large house. Looks like my old house...Auntie Joyces' room is all kool, its lime green ! Me and Bry stole Brand's keys and sat in his new silver Eclipse...leather seats [drool] Britt gave me ice cream and we loaded up the barbeque and headed to the store.

At Ralphs, we bought buns.. [hamburger.] ice and charcoal...Brand bought the freakin cheapest kind..not the automatic light..we drove only like 5 minutes down the street to Dana point, passed the Ritz Carlton and down to Silver Creek Beach. We freaking carried so much stuff down...it was a LONG freakin walk to the beach..and we decided to walk farther down to the right because there were so many freakin people. We set up in a secluded place, past the 2nd lifeguard tower. Put up the umbrella, set up chairs and the mini grill. We couldn't get the grill to work, cuz someone forgot the propane spigot and that same someone bought cheap ass charcoal that needed lighter fluid. Did we bring lighter fluid..? HELL NO. So we played in the sand and water till people came with lighter fluid. I waded a bit and got used to the cold water. I watched Bry body and boogie board. It was funny, there were huge waves and he didn't catch ANY of them. He just kinda rode up and down on the board. He decided to dig a 6 foot hole in the sand. Him and Brand were in there digging and i decided to make something with the sand they were digging out. I started to make a castle..and that didn't work. So christina started putting it all on me and she made me into a mermaid..it was kool..i drew scales on my fins. Tee hee. She took pictures.We buried christina in the 5 foot hole, it was kinda funny until she couldn't breathe. So i dug her out. Brand and bry's friend Melinda came and didn't talk much, she just stared at the waves. After we dug christina out...i stuck my feet in the sand. So did bry and we had a fight. I tried burying his feet and vice versa..we ended up burying each other and Brandon stomped by and we both couldn't move. OMG "Was that your toe???" hahaha. That was hilarious. then my mom called on my cell, i told her what was up, then bry kept throwing wet sand globs at me. Mehhhh that was so annoying while i was on the phone. He wanted war, so i gave it to him. Then we both went to the water to wash off. He started coming towards me and Unexpectedly pushed me into the oncoming wave ..so i was on my ass under the water...i was coughing up salt water pretty bad..he pulled me out and was like "OMG are you ok?" And i just put him in a head lock and pulled him under. Take that, loser boy ! After we were both pretty soaked ..we walked calmly out of the water and shook hands..that was enough. We looked like two soaked house cats that hate water. At least i had sexy beach hair afterward. Lisa came with the lighter fluid..then our lighter thing went out..luckily she had a lighter too. We barbequed burgers over a lighterfluid soaked grill. It was crazy..my hands were getting numb and stuff,,so i sat by the grill...after we were all done, watching the sunset and such...we packed up and walked all the way back up to the car.

I said bye to Brand and we drove off to Bry's house. I took a long warm shower..good god..sand is a diffcult bugger. Anyhoo, i came outta the bathroom and there was monica..she's kool and we watched Lord of the Rings. That was kool beans. Bry then told his mom i was sleepin over....cuz he didn't wanna drive me home so late. [can you feel my mom glaring at you?] hahaha...well we talked and watched Caroline in the city..went to bed...then woke up really early..so he could take me back..Auntie Maria made eggs and bagels..Yumm..and we drove to Irma's. Immediately after i arrived, Irma and reah and me drove to the airport to pick up Rowena. We held up a sign "HEY YOU ! HOW MUCH?? 50 cents ?!" Hahaha rowena's a riot. we picked up her bags..dropped them off at the house and went to Burbank to meet my mom. We sat in Ikea for a while..had ice cream while reah shopped. Then we went to barnes and noble...then met my mom at Chevy's. Had lunch...said goodbye. Drove to Van nuys...99 ranch...humm i stared at the fish tanks fora long time while my mom ordered seafood. i looked at some tilapia and some were swimming on their backs..alive, mind you..and some were upside down, facing the bottom the of the tank..i thought they had vertigo..had boba and bought a whole buncha shit..now i'm home and ready to party.

yeah i have a boyfriend too omg, poor freaking chris...worst thing for such a homophobe. i laughed so hard my throat is raw
NeoSpiderGold: that was so dirty earlier..
NeoSpiderGold: i took a shower cuz of it.
NeoSpiderGold: eew.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: what?
NeoSpiderGold: A word of advice...from chris =)
YeLLoDuCKiE1: LOL
YeLLoDuCKiE1: ROTFLMAO
NeoSpiderGold: that was gross!!
YeLLoDuCKiE1: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa
YeLLoDuCKiE1: hahahahahahahaha
YeLLoDuCKiE1: hah
YeLLoDuCKiE1: ahahah
YeLLoDuCKiE1: ahahah
YeLLoDuCKiE1: omg omg HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
NeoSpiderGold: that was the worse feeling ever.
NeoSpiderGold: i was like..."ehhh..it's a guy!!"
NeoSpiderGold: i had to take a shower cuz of that.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: LOL
NeoSpiderGold: i felt so dirty.
NeoSpiderGold: :-\

Anyhoo i checked my lottery tic and i didn't win shit, i didn't even get ONE number ! i started talking to Kenn and Chrispy, they're off playing starcraft again for the millionth time. Well earlier...Chris had to clean his room and Ken wanted to play Starcraft with SOMEONE. So i suggested mark, cuz i suck ;) ok well after number registrations and re-installments, he got b-net working and played as "Lordothestep313" while Kenn played as "freakinwinston" . [chris is "freakinevan"...i said mark could be "freakin andrew"] anyhoo...after mark and ken kicked ass, i talked to chris...
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol mark and ken totally kicked this one guy's ass.
NeoSpiderGold: lol.
NeoSpiderGold: ken did that?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: you gotta play with them
NeoSpiderGold: no way.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: i watched the whole thing
NeoSpiderGold: sure.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: it was mark mostly.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol
NeoSpiderGold: haha
YeLLoDuCKiE1: he was telling ken what to do and stuff
NeoSpiderGold: lol..freakin' ken.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: one guy on the other team got mad at mark for doing things too fast
YeLLoDuCKiE1: so that guy left !
NeoSpiderGold: do you know how to play?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: minimally..i can't keep up like yall
YeLLoDuCKiE1: omg the room was named "Faggeh"
YeLLoDuCKiE1: i was like.. omg no...my brother is getting sucked into their world !
NeoSpiderGold: we're always in there.
NeoSpiderGold: LOL
YeLLoDuCKiE1: all cuzza chris ...who HAD to clean his room instead of play with Ken
YeLLoDuCKiE1: i was kicked off the internet and had to look for tv shows to watch
NeoSpiderGold: well you love playing tv.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: Undressed was on...that's a horrible show.
NeoSpiderGold: mark is turning!
NeoSpiderGold: lol
NeoSpiderGold: wanna play with us?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: that's ok, i'll stick to my non-game internet experience
NeoSpiderGold: aww man.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol..mark can be "freakinandrew"
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah so if you catch him online, ask him to play or somethin
NeoSpiderGold: lol..sounds good to me. why talk to me though?
YeLLoDuCKiE1: cuz i know he's in good hands...well...sorta.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yours..not Ken's.
NeoSpiderGold: haha
NeoSpiderGold: thanks.
YeLLoDuCKiE1: i think that's funny how everyone's like "Ok, you watch over chris.."
YeLLoDuCKiE1: and i'm all "Ok chris, watch over mark"
NeoSpiderGold: lol that is funny, never thought about that :-)

prankamania hahaha... irma is the queen of pranks. oh man, yesterday..she was talking to Ate ming on the internet and ate ming was like "Where's jennifer? how is she?" Irmas was all " oh she broke her arm.." After ate freaked...irmas continued saying " Oh...yeah, its cuz i pushed her..." hahahaha.. Ate was mad freakin out. And Irmas confessed after Ate was about to call my mom. Shoot. that woulda been bad. Hahaha and just now...Rowena's coming from Canada on the 14th...today is the 12th
f L i P C a S a [1:44 PM]: you!!!!!
IceCreamIrms [1:45 PM]: hey we went to the airport this morning, where the hell were you ?
f L i P C a S a [1:48 PM]: liar!!
IceCreamIrms [1:49 PM]: took you long enough...geez

haha today was a funny day....of course, we woke up at the usual noonish. We sat around and watched dvds and dang ABBa kareoke. We decided to bake a pound cake, but we lacked vegetable oil. So we decided to go to the store...we decided to try the stick shift ! My uncle donated his old volkswagon to this family. So i kinda taught irma how to drive stick, it was pretty good ! I was successful ~!!! haha i got her to shift up to 2nd...we went around the block like twice, but not great enough to take to the store..One guy in a truck honked at us and laughed at Irma. So we switched cars...went to albertsons, bought pudding...oil and i got my mascara ! YAY ! hahahaha. We drove home debating about gas. we baked two cakes...they both were VERY chocolately ! sheesh...then we watched bridget jones' diary. Then i had irma dye my hair..we tried to make it blue, but it just turned copper bleached. its kool though. We then booked it to little caesars, 5 dolla pizzas! we browsed the video store while we waited for the pizza. Then..we dropped the pizza at home and drove to target to get pads and other stuff...weh..and now we're here..waiting for reah to get offa work so we can kick it at her apartment...

YOU get lost... gah me and irma woke up at the usual noonish. argued about what we were going to do today. We decided on walking the block, the Norwalk block. haha, this is the most grounding experience. The ghettos of L.A. I just cahnged my pants, put my hair in a fountain and walked out the door. We walked down a myriad of residential streets, lookin at yards and stray dogs. We walked around the block...seeing old sites and smeeling piss..yeah she used to work at Baskin Robbins. We roamed the 99 cent store grabbing snacks and drinks to eat during the dollar movie we were gonna watch. We spent like 5 dollars...sat by a fountain to stuff the crap into our bags. We walked to the theater and watched Udercover brother. It had its moments, but overall, just sucked. Haha. I drank my soda and prolly ate half of a chocolate bar. We walked to Save on and looked at makeup and magazines. Walked to the LOT and looked at hair dryers. We walked home, found more stray dogs. Irma tried leading me the wrong way..but i knew where to go, luckily. We came home to see Reah's big ass in the bed. She bought A walk to Remember for Irma. Dear god we're watching it now.

ok after two viewings of a walk to remember; one noramlyl and the other with commentary...the special features and about 20 viewings of the freaking Mandy moore music video...reah and i got sick and decided that we were hungry. We drove to Artesia and looked for vietnemese food. after staring at closed restaurants..we found a crack in the wall that seated us. We ordered and ate..talked shit. Then my mom called. She said i'm gonna be so FAT, because everytime she calls, i'm EATING. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm a growing child ! hahaha. Well we finished and drove to south street. me and irma went to cold stones while reah sat in the car holding herself. Hahaha...we blared the music on the way home and watched harry potter and played with the DVD it was fun..

this looks like a job for me.. Wow..what a good set of two days. It actually all started at two o clock in the morning on Friday...We were all in a chat room [ chris, rachel, scottie, me , sarah] we argued about the plans for Disneyland...erf..didn't matter, plans got changed again anyway the next day. Mom forgot to wake me up...i lounged around for a long time...jason, chris and rach finally picked me up at like 10...we drove around..met scottie at Rachel's. drove two cars to disneyland. Scottie drove chris and I rode with Jason and rachel. bryan kept callin me...i kept callin him. He arrived at the parking lot when we were exiting to visit rachel's friends. ppor bryan waited in the parking lot for us while we waited for rach's friends to arrive...then we all drove to the parking lot, TIMON?? freaking far away man. We freakin took the 10 minute shuttle I called Bry and i was like...yeah "I'm walking with a white thing [rachel] and a tall white guy with a red hat..." And bry was like "OHHH i see y ou.." We got in...me and bry paid for our own tix..everyone else got in free...sheesh....we got fast passes to Space Mountain.. Went on "Honey I shrunk the audience" Bryan freaked out pretty good. I hear all the kids screaming in agony when the snake appeared. We then walked to the Matterhorn...bry ate his sandwich..from subway in the line..mmmm..i rode with chrispy. he wouldn't scoot back...mah...we walked to thunder mountain and i rode with Bry...chris was flailing all over scottie...we walked around fantasy land looked for ACs..lost half of the group...found them again at Space mountain...i rode with Bry..and the sound wasn't working at all..that sucked..but i guess it was ok. we ate expensive lunch, bryan and scott freaked out about the price of chocolate milk. Jason chucked his bread at the wall while we all mingled and got to know each other a little more. We walked...to adventureland...waited in line for indiana Jones..chris drove...i screamed my lungs off for fun. the guy behind me was CRACKIN' up....that was great. that line was long...we walked to splash mountain..saw the line and turned around. We went to the haunted mansion. Oh geez. Chris never been on ANY of these rides. ASTOUNDING. Sheesh..ok, we sat there in the seat, me and bry, and the voice was all talking right..and then suddenly it started reciting the safety speech in spanish! omg, that was hilarious..and it was saying like..keep your kids on the ride, so i was like" Oh so what if someone decides to get off the ride? Are they gonna stop the ride??" Then all of a sudden..the lights shut off and the ride stopped..we were in the dark and the announcer was like.."some spooks have stopped the ride..the ride will start again shortly" OMG i like cling to bry, scared outta my mind ! i screamed pretty damn loud. Then we went to pirates of the carribbean, we lost rach, jason and chris on the way there. So many people came to that ride right when we got there..and dang we had to wait for those three! Gah...its all good though. Me and rachel pimped it. [Jason Rach chris] [bry me scottie] hahaha yeah. Then Bry blinded me with his bright phone..SHEESH. Then we rode splash mountain. Scott was trying to make his boobs grow, the ones between his legs. hahaha. We took a really great picture on the way down. Yes, bry does look constipated. We sat and chilled waiting for scottie and chris to buy the pics. Turns out chris can't scan it, he has no scanner. Good one. Then we rode space mountain again, me and Bry tried making ourr own music, didn't work. Then Matterhorn AGAIN...hahaha, chilled in the ice cream shop where laura worked. Played some of the dime games. Chris is sexless, Jason was Frigid and Scottie was DYNO-MITE ! tahahahaha...walked around downtown disney bry gave me his jacket, it was collld. ...FOUND A DUCK STORE. OMG. [faint]. We saw a club..i decided that i was tired and should go to Irma's ...er plus i didn't wanna pay 5 bucks to check it out.. So i called her up, told her to start driving to Downtown Disney. Me, Bry and Jason walked and shuttled all the way to the Timon freaking parking lot...got my bag...shuttled back..shuttled on another shuttle and met Irma who scared the crap out of us by screaming "JENNIFER JUMP OFF !" hahaha..we were crackin up. drove like..90 down the freeway...unpacked in her room...i got the TOP bunk. hahaha. talked and chilled a little..watching some jay leno. erg. then i fell asleep.

Super awesome one hour party ! we woke up at about noon. We had to drive grandma to the airport. She forgot her passport two exits before the airport. Vegi-wokery. Showered. Dad picked me up..picked up uncle resty...went to Auntie Ija's house..Virgin daquieri's on the rocks? Hip hop and nsync dancing...9 course meal. symmetrical tables...ahhh. we went bowling..Guys VS. GIRLS. hahaha.chilled at Jamelle's. that bed was 15 years OLD. Ew..was someone conceived there? buying time... glow sticks. popsicles. watched shallow hal

In the words of the great jehuyeah i was talking to Jehu...haha that guy is a character. i did a whole lotta nothing agai ntoday, planned my trip for this week. I'm going to disneyland tomorrow morning and staying at Reah's apartment ..then chillin..then going to Jade's graduation party. Gonna chill for a week, with rowena and irma and reah..and hopefully bryan and brand and jade. Soo.. i packed my hairs all wet. I went on finapix..i'm 13th on the top 50 for females 18-21. that's pretty good...wow.. i didn't know that was possible without showing boobs or g-strings.. i made another quiz Because Zach B. cheated horribly and got a 100% hahaha...sheesh..so i made a harder one. So i'm gonna eat something and sleep a little earlier than usual...1 o clock? hahaha..
littlejuanny: my friends are being mean to me
YeLLoDuCKiE1: which friends?
littlejuanny: steve namely
YeLLoDuCKiE1: pfft he's always been a dick
littlejuanny: yeah he is
YeLLoDuCKiE1: he doesn't care much about other people...i have first hand experience...
littlejuanny: so do i
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah i remember hearing about the car antenna..
littlejuanny: that was mean
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah it was.
littlejuanny: It left a bruise
YeLLoDuCKiE1: ew !
littlejuanny: he is a bastard
YeLLoDuCKiE1: i kept wondering why you put up with all of that through the year
littlejuanny: eh its funny when its not happening to you

freaking A, Mom!!! ok..first she changes her mind yesterday..then she changes it about something today...i changed my plans twice for her god dammit. She can't keep doing this to me. FUCK. my original plan was to be picked up at 8:30...go to disneyland with jason and rachel, MEET scottie and chris after i meet bryan..meet up with her friends..blah blah have fun right? then go home with bryan, end of story? NOPE. Well...she changed her mind about Bryan's house..so now its Ermas...Rachel failed to inform me that she had no purpose of going early and that she would get in trouble if Jason drove her..and she told me the only reason we were leaving early was so that i could meet up with bryan and walk in the park for a bit with him...ER...WHAT??! dude...she's the reason i'm fucking going in the first place...this whole thing is giving me a headache. And its 7:30 in the morning right now...my mom was complaining yesterday that she had no money...so she was gonna wake me up early so we could go to the bank and then she'd drop me at rachel's...we were gonna have breakfast and stuff...see the thing is..she was gonna take me AT 7 ! freaking A, she left me and went tot he bank very early this morning without me. FUCKING A. So now the plan is MUY jumbled. So much for planning....good god. So far the plan is...wait till someone figures out i'm missing...get picked up ...go to Disneyland a very annoyed lil camper...

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NEWsFLASH: womanly wiles. oy, i feel horrible. today and tomorrow are gonna suck big ones. And my family HAD to tempt me with GREAT sugary food today...eh i was about to watch little women when my mom told me to get dressed because we were goin to Sharky's. we get there, i order a quesadilla, loaded with steak and cheese. Well i can't eat a lot of it..and eh..i just drink a lot of lemonade to try and feel better. We get togo boxes and take one car to Valermo St. Andrew's Abbey. After the grandmas finished praying and exporling we drove around..the chrystallaire neighborhood for old white folks...lol...anyhoo..we went to Charlie browns and got dried fruit, honey and shakes.. i got a banana one...strike two for me. So my dad gets gas at Shell and i'm feelin it...I'm totally out..my cramps really got worse. I got home and laid on the bed for a while. Yay my mom bought heat things for my tummy...i'm such a little baby.

Kama su-what? ok, so ..these thermapad things that i've had on my abdomen are helping with taking the pain away from the horrid cramps..but they made my legs all weak. I'm even more fatigued than ever..hopefully it goes away on friday. Sooo..i sat under the ceiling fan in the guest room and watched a LOT of tv. I sat there for 6 hours with the damn heat pad attached to me. I watched the last half of that real world movie...eh i dunno what to think about it. i watched and said all the dialogue to Ace Ventura, Pet Detective..the FIRST ONE...that was great. I watched Evolution with david duchovney and that 7 up guy. Orlando something. anyhoo...that was dumb..but weirdlyy sceintific at the same time. thennn after everyone fell asleep promptly at 11..the Kama Sutra Movie came on the digital cable. It was surprisingly un-pornographic. More like..sensual...and based on a love story..almost made me wanna puke...that's why i didn't watch the rest of it. And the only positions that they demonstrated fully was lotus position...well..it is the most interesting one..sheesh. I mean there was a lady in the movie teaching it to women and courtesans ..they had to practice on EACH OTHER. if i were a guy, i'd be turned on by the upsidedown kissing and standing on the head thing...but i'm not too excited really when it comes to watching two women..in fact i'm pretty much sickened by the image. I think i'm gonna go cry in a corner now.

Kiss my ass, military !ooh god, last night...my father was telling me about his new boss that's moving here. This "boss" has a child going into high school. So, from the great results that I had, my father decided to e-mail and promote QHHS to his new "boss". Well...good god. MY dad told me that his new "boss" didn't want his kid going to such a liberal school where gays and lesbians roam freely. I was flabberghasted to hear such a response from a supposed "Authority figure". It irritates me beyond belief to hear such things to come from so-called mature adults. How is my father supposed to take this crap from his future boss? So..because i went to a liberal school, does tha mean i'm "GAY"? oh my goodness no. Dude...QHHS was horrible for the homosexuals that i knew. They were made fun of and ridiculed by people of the same mentality as my dad's "boss". I knew some brilliant homosexuals. Very intelligent and talented. Who is this guy trying to kid? I mean, if you shelter your child in a private school environment...they'll be so naive after high school. In public school, you face real issues and social problems. That's the only way to learn. It angers me to know that America's leaders are horrible people. Someone's sexual preference does NOT determine their intelligence, success and/or friendship. We are all people. And people do not treat each other with such harsh biases or prejudices. But hey, then again we need assholes like that. You need people to be wrong before you can set them right.


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one boring eventful day i get a lot of those. Suddenly the time and my energy just passes. i knew that i wouldn't do anything at all today. so i took the initiative to bake some peanut butter snickerdoodles. Just sugar cookies with peanut butter, rolled in sugar and cinnamon. They are probably the best cookies i've ever made. They're so yummy, and of course i hid a stash for myself. I started to Play super mario brothers 2: Yoshi's Island on mark's tv...smells like ...something weird in his room, very familiar to me..er i can't put my finger on it... but anyhoo..i played the first stage OVER AND OVER again..i wanted to get a perfect score...but i kept getting so close. 55, 67, 77, 88, and finally 99..then i gave up..that kinda annoyed me..i prolly reset the stage like 12 times. I'm horrible at video games..and it was an easy one too...gah. Anyway, i don't remember what i watched..but iwent on the internet a lot..i made another site layout. Starstruck Barbie 2.0 And checked out findapix...dude i'm on the top 50 for girls 18-21. Yay last i checked i was 17th..but prolly am at like 50 cuz people are mean on that site. They cheat. There'sa pic of that girl from smallville on there...and i wanna know how many of my votes are sincere. Oh yeah, i remember i watched the majority of Sister Act 2, the one with the choir. hahaha.. i mean the one with Lauryn Hill and Jennifer Love Hewitt. Then i remember watching Shrek with the grandmas. I think i'm going to assimilate Shrek's vocabulary and diction.. "That'll do.." "Oh for the love of Pete " "Hold th' phone..!" "Compensating for something.." "I have to save my ass." "Oh that wasn't very nice, he's just a donkey..." Anyhoo. After that, some people dropped by outta nowhere. I surfed the net a bunch...talked to chris about finapix, it was hilarious. Thennnn...we ate dinner, my dad came home with corn to boil and chicken to BBQ. He also was talking about coloring his hair..he's getting to that "age" now. And since he's getting that ear surgery...he feels REALLY old. Meh..48? Uh-oh i sense mid life crisis approaching. We ate outside in the dusty wind with the grandmas. Mark left abruptly for some band meeting where everyone will complain about the new "prices" to be in band. Haha...too bad for them. Requiring volunteer hours from parents like mine is impossible..my mom works 7 days a week...days and night shifts. My dad's just lazy. Our family has no problem paying the fees. But see the thing is..most familys can't. A family can provide either one or the other ..but not both volunteerism and money. Sheesh, it makes band seem not to important to some people now. Or more...depending on who it is. Moving on ...10 minutes later i hear the door slam shut as if someone had come in from the outside...and i saw no one..and allofasudden...Mark pops from the stairs screaming..and well you guessed it, i screamed too. Meh...later we played som Killer instinct and super mario RPG: Legend of the 7 stars. Mark wouldn't let me play really. and after he farted on me..i ran into his closet to search for his "infamous" money stash. No luck..because he kicked me outta the room, half strangling me on the way out. So..i went to the guest room, stuffed pillows in my shirt..front and back...but my skateboarding helmet on..[the pink one with the metallica stickers.] and i charged into the room looking for the money. No such luck again. Anyhoo my mom came home and i asked her if i could go to Disneyland..turns out..I CAN..YEEHAW. And i stayed downstairs..watched the rat pack. Got bored after the sex was done..so i came up here to relay my boring eventful day to you all.

2 P's : Pipes and Porn Today is Danny's b-day. Chris and i planned to get him a cake and decorate it. So i woke up early has breakfast, waited till noon, yanno to give chris time to sleep....called him up...he came..we went to Vons. Bought two chocolate cakes , decorations and baby cereal for Rachel. She had her wisdom teeth pulled out. We drove to her house to bring her the baby food...we also decorated the cake there...oh it was such a great cake. it had a story to go with it. We took a duck bill and stuck it out of the top of the cake...drew feathers all over and stuck two grapes as eyes. It was hilarious..."The pet duck that we bought you, saw the boobs on the cake and flew into it, in a horny rage.." hahaha. yeah that's the best cake EVER. Scottie came by and tagged along when we went to drop the cake off at Danny's. Luckily he was home...Christ was there. Megan and sosko showed up too. Yeah he looks like he don't care much about anything really. I gave danny his cake and handcuffs for..later use. hahaha. We chilled playing with the "Gazelle". Finally after bickering a little with Megan we caravan-ed to the mall..i rode with christ. chris followed horribly in the date rape box. We walked about the mall aimlessly...i met Thomas at the cell phone stand thing...he's nice. We shopped for lighters and smokes. No one really bought anything, except sosko who bought more butane for his lighter..which he can't find. I saw a lighter and case set that was periwinkle...i wanna get it. i need $cash$ though. Christ bought a 10 dollar game...er mario 64? i don't remember. We drove to video liquidators and walked behind the red doors. Megan was kinda disgusted that i did.."You're going TOO Jen??" hahah well it wasn't TOO exciting. Geez. The guys were reiterating stories of going past the red doors. Like when they took chrissy....he was standing in the gay porn section and didn't know it. I love how you have to bag your movies once you step out of the red doors. I walked up and down the aisles saying " opp have that one..." Some old men looked at me weird. YES i reached the desired effect. HAHAHA. There were some hilarious titles in there and some just looked ridiculous. Yikes. Danny was worried that his mom would find out about his 30 dollar dvd porn...and christ was like "Well would she rather you start smoking or buying porn?" Lung cancer Vs. blindness...hahaha Anyhoo...we stepped out and found christ and megan oogling a car accident tha happened in the parking lot. Yeah the lady was screaming " ANYONE GOT A CELL PHONE??" Christ has one...and is standing closer to the lady...yet he points to me, who is nearly still in the store...I didn't wanna give her my phone either, she was crazy ! Oh man...then christ drove me home so that he could pick up Kelso later. the others went to another porn store... Meh i just lounged at home eating periodically...meh i can't believe i came home before 6...this is so BORING.

RANDOM RATEAPIX guy...
sirlord 23 ian: hello
DJdizzyDuck: what's shakin'?
sirlord 23 ian: nuttin much
sirlord 23 ian: r u bz?
DJdizzyDuck: er, not that i know of.
sirlord 23 ian: oh ok
sirlord 23 ian: sorry to bother
DJdizzyDuck: what?
sirlord 23 ian: im sorry for bothering u
sirlord 23 ian: i got ur sn from find a pic
DJdizzyDuck: oh..well i never said you were bothering or interuppting..
DJdizzyDuck: where'd you get that idea?
sirlord 23 ian: i dunno
sirlord 23 ian: but im really sorrie ok?
DJdizzyDuck: why are you apologizing?
sirlord 23 ian: coz i bothered u
sirlord 23 ian: anyways
sirlord 23 ian: wats ur name?
DJdizzyDuck: you didn't bother me in the first place...
DJdizzyDuck: i'm Jenn
sirlord 23 ian: nice to meet u jenn
sirlord 23 ian: where in the bay u from?
DJdizzyDuck: was born in Frisco.
sirlord 23 ian: so ur from frisco?
sirlord 23 ian: where in frisco?
sirlord 23 ian: 510 here
DJdizzyDuck: dude..i gotta go..
omg i had to cut off that convo, cuz that guy was annoying me. who identifies themselves with area codes? i mean really. its like for people who live on the outskirts of a specific code..like a person from lancaster saying their from LA, thats so...nerdy ! yo i hate it when people apologize over and over again. its like they're not listening to you ! omg, i hate that ~!! and then when people ask for my name and "fail" to mention their own names...its like they need a name to go with the pic so they can...eh..don't wanna think about it...omg...ew. ok am i wrong or...does "Not that i know of " mean something else than what it is? geez...who doesn't understand that?! obviously, not that guy. And wait i'm guessing that guy's name is Ian. But it would've been nice to say..instead of just implying..yanno...etiquette.

dance major? MEH, that was a tremendously long day. OY, i woke up at around9, had some bacon, eggs and pancake. just one ~! haha, well rach, chris and hannah showed up first. Rach started crimping her hair, hannah started ironing shirts..chris burned another copy of the cd on my computer. Raci showed up and watched X-men evolution with my brother. Some episode consisting of Spike and Storm having some issues with crazy african tribesmen. Jason showed up at 10:30...we practiced a little. we just waited for the gay-bros © and garett. they finally came, an hour later, we practiced our butts off. We figured out a beginning sequence.. Raci and I were swaying trees in the wind. hahaha, the guys did the matrix. we practiced inside...and outside....in groups...in pairs and someone did it by himself...coughchriscough...We cleaned for about 3 hours, espcially the last half...snacking and drinking water periodically. We had about 3 real run throughs. Everyone jumped in the shower...not at the same time. Changed...got ready, loaded the chairs...blah. Chris just HAD to lock his keys in the car. [slap on the forehead]. we drove to the mall brought the chairs in. practiced in a hall for a bit...went to the backstage..prayed as usual. Got on stage, realized it was longer and not as wide as we thought it would be. It was ok. HAHAHA the beginning was hilarious. Hannah set a weird precedent...we got more "OHH that musta hurt" comments than actual cheers. She play fell and the stage was hollow, so she made a really loud noise. Oh it was great, i kinda almost jumped myself. But we were so ON. It was weird. Then Brand was really cute fanning himself with his hat and throwing it aside. then the screaming part came...i crawled through raci's legs...everyone did acrobatic stuff...toe touches. But Brand...made the crowd cringe in a good way. He did a cartwheel, toetouch combo ending in the splits.. god then the janet part came, i remembered more as we were performing it. But when we did the part on the floor, with the knees...YEOW. I hurt so BAD. But i kept going. didn't wanna look like no fool. I was so happy to be on the floor face down at the end, i was in pain. we gathered everything and got offstage. YIKEs my knee was killing me, pfft the security wanted to get the paramedics. pfft, i didn't need that shit. i saw hip hop. It was cute and very interesting..it was only a minute long though. i also didn't need to lose the rest of the group...made me walk all around by myself. gah. they were having a meeting about the new gigs that sprung up. two television offers, the AV fair and a party, we're gonna get paid...finally. after talking to chester the arresta and poorman, we got some blue pepsi...it makes me gassy ! we took pictures and went to my house. some people changed and we rushed to get presents for Nate, it was his b-day. So we bought donuts~! We went to his house, it was a blast..that kid is gonna go places, i swear. We bailed at like 9:30 and went to Raci's dad's party. That was fun too. dude i got home at like 12:30 and i plopped on my bed and fell asleep.

CaptainVocke: this rabbit wiil keep my occupied for hours
YeLLoDuCKiE1: yeah, sosko sent me that link and long time ago and i've been playing with it since.
CaptainVocke: such a silly thing
YeLLoDuCKiE1: sosko or the rabbit?
CaptainVocke: both
YeLLoDuCKiE1: lol

a SWEET taste of the future. oh me oh my, my orientation kicked major ass. so much fun that i forgot that the internet existed.

What's excellent about Davis: i met Hemal Panchal.
What's even BETTER: He hung out with me ~!

What's excellent about Davis: Kenny was my Advisor.
What's even BETTER: He thinks i'm hilarious and he drove me downtown when Hemal made us late. And he showed me heaven, i mean borders and Tapioca Express.

What's excellent about Davis: So much stuff to do.
What's even BETTER: Its stuff i LOVE.

What's excellent about Davis: everybody drinks BOBA.
What's even BETTER: there are 3, count 'em, THREE tapioca places.

What's excellent about Davis: i tested into an easy math.
What's even BETTER: i tested into honors everything else.

What's excellent about Davis: its so pretty
What's even BETTER: the weather rocks and i'm not allergic to that place !

What's excellent about Davis: buffets for every meal.
What's even BETTER: 4 different buffets to go to ! FOUR, count 'em..FOUR ~!

What's excellent about Davis: room-mates
What's even BETTER: roomates that live in Hercules ! tee hee !

What's excellent about Davis: You can take WHATEVER class you want.
What's even BETTER: i have two PE classes. lol.

What's excellent about Davis: you're allowed 7 guests to sleep overnight per quarter, for 7 days each.
What's even BETTER: they can be GUYS.

What's excellent about Davis: they have left handed special seats !
What's even BETTER: Hemal's left handed.

What's sucks about Davis: too big to find other people again when school starts.
What's even WORSE: I choked when Hemal was leaving. I got a pat on the shoulder.

oh man, Davis freaking rocks. DAY ONE we arrived freaking early..like at 10:30...when we were scheduled to check in at 1:30. Good job mom and dad. if they had stopped arguing, maybe they woulda paid more attention. anyhoo..the guy told us that we could check in at 12:30..so , er we ate lunch and milled around the Memorial Union [MU]. we were first in the fricking line. [NOTE: fricking and hella are the words of the week and fricking everything has an abbrieviation]. I grab my ID and key. I stayed at Regan Hall's Rienda building, room 310. Its a sign. My last english teacher's room was 310. Anyhoo, i unpacked, MOM frickin made my bed. omg. I left a note for my roomate...telling her what my name was. We went to the Computer Lab [IS] to set up my e-mail and such. Yeah. its jk[mylastname]@ucdavis.edu I ran back to the room to say "Hi" to Rachel...filipino girl from Hercules that knows ALL my old friends. That was tight. Then parents and students were separated, we played "I love my neighbor" and when ya got stuck in the middle, ya had to say your name, hometown and major. Yeah i got stuck once. The girl next to me got stuck FIRST..Her name was Jennifer as well. Turns out, she was from Palm springs. We were puti n a group together for ice breakers...Hemal, Jessica, chris, sofia, van and some other people were there. We played bam the imaginary ball and tried to get to know each other. Our group was the smallest, yet loudest laughing group EVER. We went to the welcome meet and watched tedious skits..some were ok. Kenny was spiderman ! OMG they killed Kenny. Not really..but i dodged projectile tube socks. Can't wait for the flying burritos at the games. I pretty much hung with Jenn the rest of the day. We had dinner, turns out...our parents got along WELL.. it was creepy. Lakers..hospital...they spent the whole week together. We went to the last campus tour with Hemal and Chris. Chrystal was our tour guide. Afterward she told me that my parents were embarassing her by taking photos of her talking on the mic. At 8, we chilled with Kenny out on the grass..he gave up our planners and got to know us pretty well. I hope to god that he's my RA. And at 9 there was Moonlight madness bowling. Since neither, I, Jenn or Jess brought socks..we decided to ditch the activity and walk around town..we walked around sorority rho and the mall..wasn't too exciting..we hadn't seen downtown yet. I introduced Jenn to Boba. it was ok at the Old Tea House. We went back to Jenn's room and waited for her roomie to arrive..they met, almost fell in love. I went to my room and took a shower...read my book...yadda yadda...talked to chris on my phone. Then he fricking texts me in the middle of the night twice..while we're FRICKING sleeping..and we had a calculus test in the morning..FRICKING chris..i texted him back "FUCK. got a calculus test tomorrow, QUIT IT." hah that was mean, but it got the point across. DAY TWO Well i woke up at like 6:30..ate...went with everyone to the hall...They have special left handed seats. it was awesome. Hemal sat behind me. AND erf, i missed two to get into CALCULUS.. Meh its ok. i didn't wanna take it anyway. Eh we had horrible horrible advisor for Grad requirements..Marquel, she talked wayyy too fast...talked only about HER major ECONOMICS??..and wasn't too exciting so i didn't really listen to her. Lunch was kool..took the chem exam, sat behind hemal...i scored a 35 out of 44 when the average was 20. But didn't get into Chem 2A because of my math. They made us sit and listen to dumb people for 3 hours in the SAME HALL. Then..thank god, they moved a group of us to the Life Science Addition [LSA] to listen to Mark Sanders.. he answered all my questions and made everything click in my head. The barbeque was yumm...me and Hemal had chicken and sat in the grass. peeps started playing volley ball, frisbee and football..and er, we're not the sporty type...well not rough sports...track and badminton. hahaha. We got lectured yb Marquel AGAIN...she's so boring. then me and Hermal and his friend tried to figger out schedules in his room. 210 in my building. we were gonna take the same english..but i changed mine and so did he. He's being funny and taking Native American experiences. I was like.."Dude you're not THAT kinda indian.." He's a hot hindu like Amit. Well..better looking..thinner..less hairy...shorter...prolly smarter ;) . Anyhoo...we missed the "Davis Experience" freaking Hemal made us late. I complained to Kenny and he drove us, excitedly downtown in search of the tour group. As we were pulling out of Regan circle he blares the radio telling once of us to turn up the bass in the back..and i was like...FADE it Kenny ! And i said "Oh wait..you can't fade, there are no speakers in the back.." hahaha. we drove around down town picked up some people...he dropped us off at Tapioca express. As he was pointing to a theater, a car almost hit us. Everyone BUT him freaked out. It was funny. I bought Boba and found DDR there..hahaha. it a dollar ?! freaking A. We walked to Borders and Jamba juice. We met with the rest of the group...the guides led us down a dark street and made us sit on the sidewalk while they told ghost stories. Something about Tercero...i drank and walked and talked to Hemal about paranoia and scary things at night. We saw Tercero and it was a little creepy...poor 6th graders sleeping there. Anyhoo, i figgered that something was up..we had arrived at Tercero at exactly 10:30 pm...seemed like they had something planned. a Spook perhaps? Well i called it and yet, i was the only one that freaked out. I dropped everything, my ID, my meal card..keys and drink. I recovered everything but the meal card. it was dark, i didn't find out till the next morning at breakfast. As we were walking back, Hemal was laughing and hugged me ou t of sympathy. MEH. no pity hugs. i went back to my room and figgered out my schdule, took a shower..and chilled with Rachel..we talked about Mandalay, pinole and all my old friends..it was nice to hear about them. DAY THREE i fricking lost my meal card..Hemal offered to pay for it, but i declined..i packed and checked outta my room. i fixed my schdule AGAIN....went to hemal's room and waited for him, helped him pack and stuff. Then more lectures...then one on one advising, didn't do crap cuz all my classes were closed...erf. But anyhoo that's later. We hung out again, i met this pretty girl named Christy Fornier..she was REALLY pretty. She had shorter hair than mine and had a style similar to mine. And i met RAWI ! he's really fun. like a big ol panda that listens to tight music. We went to the closing lecture and well, i got separated from everyone cuz i couldn't go to lunch, MEAL CARD...GAH. so i went downtown with my parents..Noodle house, yum. Then we got boba. Then they dropped me off to go register. i ran into hemal as he was leaving, he got all his classes...obscure ones..but that was kool. It was so hard for me. I got Workload MATH 55, Asian studies, Aerobic Running, Weight Training, and intro to Lit. Eh the rock climbing class was FULL...ERF. So was Contemporary dance...but its kool, i can change them. i walked back...turned in my colorful survey..got a souveneir and left...i said bye to Jenn and we have each other's cell phones...i wonder if i'll EVER see Hemal again...Ok. I'm SPENT.


feeling the same erf i woke up all early this morning, called Ken to make sure he woke up..I called rach...clarified that we were practicing at Garett's. Erf, well we never got there till 2, then rach and them took an hour...so..once we got started, we were yelled at by garett's mom. Yikes. i was pretty scared. She told us to leave. So we got our stuff and got to my house. then garett and his mom called to get directions..she kinda apologized for yelling. He came to practice anyway. We fixed a ton of stuff today. Chris showed up late, we all thought he died, but he went to work..that was weird...but anyway..we got the whole thing down..at least the girls do. People can watch and say "Hey i can do that..." but next time, watch the girls..its a little harder than you think. I was so tired. I was so fucked up around the Janet part..good god i don't remember it at all, at least i'll be lookin like an idiot tomorrow...anyhoo...i promised i'd sleep early because we have practice here tomorrow. my hairs all wet and braided so it can be all dirty looking tomorrow. good deal..yeah beth isn't dancing with us..i'm not too surprised..haven't seen her in forever. Chismosa...nerr anyhoo. ate some peaches and lime yogurt, it was yum. My away message says "Masticating..BBL" . teresina IMed me saying "Stop masticating ! you'll go blind ~!" hahaha.

sleeping early for once. oh, man..the only time i decide to sleep early..at like 1AM. Ok, it started last night when my mother told me that we were going to church early on Sunday...so I took her cue to sleep early. Oh i should have stayed up. I woke up to my raging father...yeling for me to wake up. He told me to walk outside in my PJs. oop...well. This had never happened before...my house was egged. I mean, TPing is ok, but egging on white stucco is not kosher to my father. I mean i'm ok with it...its just my father took it as a major threat. So while we're all getting ready for CHURCH...my father is yelling at us, saying we're to blame...or we must've done something to someone to make them want to violate our property. Ohhhh man...if my dad finds out who it was, he's gonna press charges on the counts that its vadalism of private property and possible discrimination/hate crime. I think that's a little too far. I mean, if i were my dad, i'd just make the fucker pay for the cleaning bill...we have to call a specific dude to clean the stucco because its all yellowy and nasty looking. My dad was also saying "How about we leave it up there as a reminder to us that not everyone likes us." Well i guess someone doesn't like me or my family. As soon as i was showered, i got on the net and e-mailed a buncha people asking for cooperation. I said that if the perps came forward before 9 pm tonight, no charges would be charged. But i feel sorry for whoever did it...cuz my dad's a madman. He was really pissed driving two miles to church...he was speeding and stuff...

anyhoo, we got to church and Paterick was there...he sat behind us. We went to vons to shop for food. We came home, made pizzas and sandwiches...Everywhere we went it smelled like or we saw a picture of eggs. it was some horrible pun that the public was playing on us or something. Eh well i really wanna get this over with cuz my dad is making my life hell. He blames me. He says i'm a disagreeable person...maybe that's why someone egged our house. BAH. Please, if anyone has a problem with me, don't EVER involve my dad, that's just asking for an unnecessary headache. I can settle things peacefully. Ok...i guess imma freeze some water, going rock climbing again.

You are a muse.

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There's a rock in my hole ! hahah dude, anna and shannon picked me up while i was watching the Virgin suicides again. We drove to shannons and waited for the rest of the climbing posse.we finally got into shannon's extremely large van again...drove past little rock and into the Devil's Punchbowl. We packed our frozen waters...and headed onto the trail. We went up and over this mediocre rock and chris T. was all freaked out, telling us that he was afraid of heights; oh that was great. So he took the car keys and headed back by himself, while us chicks kept going, diverging more and more from the trail. We trekked through soft dirt and loose gravel...oooh man. I thought i was going to die in the beginning....cuz there was this almost river of dirt that kelsey tried to trudge through, if you weren't secured...you could fall into the ravine. when it was my turn, i saw this branch above me, so i grabbed it. I thought i was all successful..and i was going to get through...But the branch started to crack loudly and i just looked at it with widened eyes. Shannon started cracking up; wasn't helping my concentration. The freaking branch broke apart and i froze there..sliding slightly. I could just hear the frantic laughing of everyone else...i was worrying about how to stay up without sliding 20 feet down the dirt, to the bottom. I finally just threw the damn stick over my shoulder and jumped to the nearest bush...it hurt,, but it kept me up there. we continued..going up and down trails ,trying to get to the rock climbing. Yikes i was stabbed a good number of times by Yucca bushes...i even bled. Then there was a part where we had to slide down the dirt to get to the bottom...oh man, i was surfing, anna was all worried that i was gonna fall on my face, but i didn't. We went up a large rock and went down because there was nothing on the other side. On the way down from that one, one of my feet slid and i freakin stood up on the side of the freakin vertical mountain and ran a little..and almost fell over the side...but i caught myself...haha gave them a good scare. Another time, i was last and slid offa the face of a rock and well i had too much momentum and ran my legs into shannon's ..it was ok, my ass broke my fall..it was so funny, that i didn't notice the cuts on my wrists. We went up and down...rocks and paths...through trees and dried creek beds. Anna's a freak and took weird ways..through bushes and digging her face into Yucca needles. Kelso refused to jump anywhere..while Anna freaking dove offa the rock and almost over the other side of it. At one point...we were kinda stuck and anna decided to use a overhanging rock as an anchor...well she put a little bit of weight on it..and it...Fell off and broke into pieces below us. Er..at that point we thought " OK...going back the way we came now..." We found our way to a dry creek bed and followed it to some climbing rocks. We drank water and planned the next route. It started to get dark as we made our way down...Everyone convinced me to lead the way back up the mountain...it was all loose dirt and gravel..it was probably the hardest part of the trek. The dirt was up to our knees and all the hand holds dissappeared after each person used it. Poor Shannon almost fell off the side of the mountain..we were probably 40 feet up and she was sliding...while anchored with only one hand. Anna tried offering a hand, but she had nothing to hold onto either. I was up high planning where to go...Finally I reached the top..and around the trees, we ended up being atop a large rock..We sat up there drinking water and freaking out about the freaking dirt we trudged through. Shannon saw "Mufasa Rock" and mentioned that there was a trail leading to the parking lot right by it. We just had to crab walk sideways [where my pants tore..] to the dry creek bed....go up a hill down..and up the creek again...and finally, we had found the trail..And we thought it was going to be easy from then on...OH NOOO...the freakin trail was a half mile UPHILL. Oh god i was so dead after ward...but i felt REALLY good. We found poor chris looming around alone. We compared our battle scars...from Yucca bushes..falling, sliding...ripped pants in odd places..haha we had to behind each other at Sharky's. I'm so freaking tired..Chrispy called me up and asked me to the movies and i regretfully declined. I'll see everyone tomorrow at practice...good god i gotta do my laundry...That's all folks !

sleeping sore. i woke up terribly sore in the quadriceps and biceps. i woke up at around 8 and went back to sleep waking up every hour from then...finally lifted my face from my pillow at 11:30 and put some new clothes on. Went downstairs to wait for rachel and whoever was going to practice today. Rach and chris came, late as usual...but that didn't matter, they were the only ones coming. Hannah came late...i learned the hard part of smooth criminal...just gotta practice. Taught chris the chair part and other things..Erl found out from JD, and from beth that we were dancing. Yo, i have nothing to say on the matter because we're WAYY too far into it to be re-teaching those parts again. He can be a good friend like Po and watch. Dude chris went the whole year not dancing with us and he's still a good sport. Garett is finally getting to dance with us this year and i'm glad for it. variAZN is dead and will always be. no more discrimination...its not a fucking variAZN reunion, NO FREAKING WAY. they left, then I ate a little...then i took a really long nap. woke up 30 minutes ago and ate corned beef and cabbage, very salty, so i ate a ton of rice with it ! haha, and here i am now.

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YeLLoDuCKiE1: AWW !
Natch12: well then...good night my favorite jennifer
YeLLoDuCKiE1: nighty night
yeah bryan made me feel good. i needed it, because this random guy had one of the most horrible conversations with me. He completely rubbed me the wrong way. you can READ IT and tell me i'm wrong to be a little irked by this guy. if you read it and don' t get why i was pissed, here are the main key's:
1) horrible grammar.
2) sayin that bio leads nowhere
3) tellin me to read unnecessary things.
4) guilt trips.
5) what does he care about the drinking?
6) telling me to relax?

AOL Women: can you decipher guy speak?
Your score: 55 out of 110.

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one step forward, two steps back Mark woke me up this morning at 9:30. Thinking it was thursday, i panicked because i thought it was late in the afternoon already. But err, no, it was 9:30...he played the piano while i tried to wake up properly...yanno laying there under the ceiling fan wondering when it's gonna fall on me. He was going to see austin power's at 10:55. yeah, i was semi-invited....actually come to think of it...it was a before -thought...i mean initially invited and then they decided, "er, nah, she shouldn't go". eh probably didn't go down like that, but for some reason...i guess my brother didn't want me to go. And no..the excuse cannot be.."Oh i heard you were already doing something today.." Er no, you can't say that...i'm not leaving for Vasquez till 3 or 4..I can't hold it against anyone though. I guess its my fault, for not informing mark of my REAL plans...everything's my fault. i saw the car pull up 40 mph faster than it should be going in a neighborhood like mine. ooh that doesn't look good. But anyhoo, i cooked ramen noodles, ate a quarter of it, drank some water and watched Girl with dominique Swain and sean patrick flannery. it was interesting. i liked the music...but i think the concept of "groupies" kinda pissed me off a little too much.

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i was watching chocolat for the millionth time and the guys came back from the movie and chilled on the couch. i had been tired because i was chugging water after rehearsing with myself...yanno the dancin. But anyhoo,,,i changed and got ready to go rock climbing and dude it was AWESOME. shannon and kelso and anna picked me up at around 2:45 and we drove to shannons to wait for diana and whoever..which turned out to be, nobody. Anna wore shorts, what a dumb butt. Diana wore nice clothes...but ended up not messing them up AT ALL. I just came out really dusty. we packed the cooler and took the extremely large van to subway, ordered foot long sandwiches and put them in the cooler. I didn't put mine, however, because it was a "hot" sandwich. we drove the extremely large van with an airconditioner to Vasquez Rocks. Oh man, that was great...from shannon complaining about the dirt road that she thought went one way...to the park ranger telling us to leave while we were getting in the car. We got there and parked in a dirt lot, ate lunch under a great tree and just left our shit there. No one was around and if they were to steal ANYTHING, it'd just be food. Armed with water bottles we tackled many rock formations and trails. However, on the first one...I almost died. HAHA.. on the way down, i took the difficult way. The traction on my shoes was horrible. So..i was semi-crab walking down this flat face, about 10 feet up. I notice the jagged egdes start to dissappear and I have nowhere to hold...so i start to slide..i start squirming and kelso yells " I can catch you !" Err too bad she was joking. i scared the shit out of everybody. i slid fast, unintentionally mind you...on my feet, dragging my poor hands behind me. Yikes, it burned. I learned my lesson...after climbing up and down for about 2 hours, we took a break back at the tree. We headed back out, re-loaded with more water, err i had started to sweat tremendously. We headed south to south east to some interesting looking rocks...we found a really fun crevice to shimmy up. I laid there between the crack for about 3 minutes thinking about where to put my feet and hands. Everyone had already gone up...kelsey was getting worried and tried to get me to grab her foot. It was a little taxing, but i used my butt to hold myself up between the two walls. Haha my butt is useful for something besides pooing and making it hard for me to fit into kid pants. We sat atop the highest rocks and took water breaks, talking shit about people and things that happened. Dude when rock climbing, you can't help but think weird things. The following words are involved: hard, hole, rock, crack, hot and things of that nature. Can't help but muster a chuckle. HAHA kelsey ripped a hole in her butt. Shannon found a ..throne? The sun had started to set, so we decided to head back...kelso, anna and diana were completely lost, but luckily shannon and i have some sort of sense of direction. we ran up and down trails...sang my mexican graduation song estoy quemando aqui...ay yai yai yai...la luce del sol es caliente... sanf "We are the champions" and "The Circle of Life". All sweaty and tired, we made it back to the car, right when it got really dark. A park ranger drove up to tell us to leave because the park had closed. We were in the middle of washing ourselves with kelso's wash cloths ! sheesh. common decency is hard to find nowadays. Anyhoo...on the way home, we decided to call around and go to El pollo loco for soft serve. it was yumm. kelso went home with chris..and shannon dropped me home. I came in to see my mom bouncing, dance bouncing i mean...to some weird music. I went upstairs..took a shower...mark banged on the door telling me to call rachel, which i did after my shower. Meh, had to wait for my dad to get off the internet..and now..my night begins. yikes my muscles hurt.





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